Sunday, November 30, 2008

Trusting in God

“Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said ot him...” Romans 4:18

The story of Abraham is somewhat amazing. If you think about it, he was old, his wife was old, yet he was promised to have offspring that would be more numerous then the stars, but at that time he didn’t even have a kid yet. Yet God miraculously provided. He gave him what was promised. That must have taken a lot of faith. Trusting in God for that long of a time, to hold on to a promise that was given for that long, that is faith. Now Abraham could have given up anytime and no one would have blamed him. It was after all, for all arguments sake, impossible to father a child at his wife’s age. And it’s not like he wasn’t trying. They were probably trying to conceive a child for maybe three decades but were not successful. That’s a long time to hold out in faith. That is a long time to pass and during that time he must have gone through some sort of doubt or maybe just question God a little. Today you would call that a Shattered Dream. Many people will give the advice of to move on from that dream. But not Abraham, he held on because he absolutely knew it was God.

So the lesson here, if God gives you a promise, and you are absolutely sure it is God, then he will bring it to pass. God will. That is His nature, that is what He does. He follows through. I just have to believe in faith. Now for me that’s all that easy especially when you are waiting on a promise. Hours feels like days, days feels like weeks, and weeks feel like years. Waiting on God’s timing can feel like an eternity. But the reward in trusting God is great. Now there are lots of things I believe that God wants to use me for and bring certain promises to me. But i know that i just have to trust him and wait. But waiting on God can be hard. But oh the rewards are great.

Lord, your plans are worth it. Help me to have the faith to hold on.

Thursday, November 20, 2008


“You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden.... In the same way let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.”

This command from the Sermon on the Mount is one of those that cannot be ignored. Well, none of them should be ignored, but this one in particular grabs me. Jesus says it let your light shine before men. Let it shine, show it off, be bright. So that they may see your good deeds and praise God. See your good deeds. The implication is that you not only got to say your are a Christian, but also you got to really live it. You got to really dig deep and follow God with all your heart and also at the same time you go to follow through with action.

Sometimes I think that I am around Christians way too much. Way too much. I long for the times where I can hang out with non Christians and just hear life with them. Also I would love to be closer to the action of the non Christian. There is where you can let your light shine. I was talking to a friend who was trying to find a way to find his wife a new job because she didn’t like working out in the “world”. I thought she had a golden opportunity to be a light in the world. With things going the way it is going. I can see the importance of bringing the light to the world. I know that I have friends and colleges to that need to see the Light of Christ, I need to make a better effort to reach out to them.

Lord thank you for sharing with me this verse. I hope that you bring more of an opportunity to reach others.

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

The Call to Follow

“Come, follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” -Jesus (Matt. 5:19)

Jesus when he calls you it is very bold and very direct. When he gives a command there is power, authority, and influence behind Him. Well, he is God of course, but what does this mean, for him to be so bold and connected that people just follow. I love this verse, it just beckons you to listen, and stirs a fire within you. Or if you have been following for quite some time this should reignite the fire that so burns within. The call to be a fisher of men. What an amazing call.

Every time I read this verse it just makes me stop and reexamine my call to be a fisher of men. What have I been doing to be an influence to the kingdom of God? How have I been a fisher of men? Often times I get caught up in too much of me, and I don’t closely listen to the Father’s call. Being a fisher of men, entails so much. To be the light in the midst of darkness, to bring hope to the hopeless, to be an ambassador of justice and peace, and most of all to love. When I left my past behind to walk in this call, I didn’t realize the weight of the decision, but the rewards have been so great. However, in many ways I have slightly lost focus, my sights have not been as sharp. So today I challenge myself and see how I am being a fisher of men. I was once asked what are three things I want to be know for. I want three those three things to be a result of being a fisher of men.

Lord I ask you that you hear my cry and grasp my call to your heart. Help me hear your voice and see what and where you want me to go. Be with me as I become more of a fisher of man.

Saturday, November 15, 2008

God's Awesome Plans...

“I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.” Job 42:2

After chapters of complaining and probably things not going well, God has now spoken. Job did exactly what any human would do, sit still and and be in awe and wonder. God is powerful above all things. He can do a things that we cannot fathom, he will complete things and bring them full circle. God is the beginning and the end.

I love this verse, it just makes you sit and reflect upon God. It make so you sit and just say wow. No plan of his can be thwarted. No plans of his can be changed, revised, or stopped. When God sets it in motion, it’s good as done. I know it’s hard for me to fully comprehend this. Especially when I’m in the middle of a problem. Like now. I thought God wanted me to do something, but it has been so far very difficult. Daily I am faced with obstacles and filled with a little doubt about the direction I am on. Or one area of my life suffers because of decisions I felt the Lord guided me too. But this verse is encouraging to me. It is encouraging me to hang tough and know that if God sets something up it will be done.

Lord thank you for the encouragement for today. Help me as you see your plans more clearly and move to trust that it will not be shaken.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

The Power of Pain

“I cry out to you, O God, but you do not answer, I stand up, but you merely look at me.” Job 30:20

Though this is heartbreaking, this is a very true reality. Job here is cracking under the pressure, cracking under the pain, cracking as the weight of God presses into him. Job here is begging for an answer, but nothing is coming together. He is under great distress, but he feels he is God is gone. But that is power of pain, it begins to mess with your mind, you doubt, you feel as if nothing is going together. And when relief does not come, you feel ignored, left out, and sometimes forgotten. Pain can do two things; build you up or break you down. Here after 30 chapters Job is beginning to break down.

I love to read Job, though sometimes its long, Job has so much for us to learn. I can dig deep and see that Job is very much like me. An everyday Christian trying to live a life pleasing to our Saviour, but getting hammered by the winds and rains of life. When the storm is too great, I can almost hear his cry. How come me Lord? Where are you! Take this pain away! And what do I sometimes hear, silence. God is quiet, God seems so distant, I feel as if His presence is gone. That is the problem sometimes. That is what I feel sometimes, God is not around. So what can I learn? His promise is sure, He will never leave me or forsake me. And during these times of hardships, I must trust in this promise. Though this is not easy to do.

Lord the power of pain can be blinding. Lord I don’t know when pain will hit my life again. But keep me close to you so that when it does, I know that you are there.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

When God Moves... He moves...

“While Peter was wondering abut the meaning of the vision, the men sent by Cornelius found out where Simon’s house was and stopped at the gate. They called out, asking if Simon who was known as Peter was staying there.” Acts 10:17-18

This event is just proof of how God really works everything together. Here, God was preparing the way for the non Jews to be welcomed into the Kingdom through Jesus. God was ready to take the message to the world. And what is really interesting is that there was a lot of things that needed to come together in order for this to happen. God needed a faithful gentile to bring Peter over to his place. Then God had to give Peter a reason to go. God intricately weaved plans together so that His glory was shown. This story is amazing in itself. It is a truly great to see God work in such ways.

Sometimes I look at stories like these and wonder if they still happen today. I know that God is still working and will continue to work in miraculous ways. But this excites me to hear things like this. This gets me all worked up because I know that God is working. It encourages me to keep the faith, to hold on to His promises even though it may be dark and I cannot see the light of day and I do not understand. I know that He is working. I know that He is forming the perfect plan.

Lord, it is pretty amazing how you do things. But what is pretty amazing is when I have to take a step back and see it all, your works is just so awesome. You amaze me.

Friday, October 17, 2008

He gives and takes away

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I shall return there. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.” -Job (Job 1:21)

What a statement. This is profound. Despite his circumstances, Job praises the Lord. That takes some real commitment and some real dedication to the Lord to say. I don’t think I can fully appreciate this statement. It must have been a struggle to loose what was pretty much everything, and in those days they did not have like a safety net or like welfare for people to go to. If you lost everything then it is exactly that, you lost everything.

It is a weird time in my life for this verse to come along. I am in the midst of a financial hardship with really no relief in sight and bills coming down my throat. It’s not like it is going to get any easier too. However, it is difficult to get to the end of the maze, when every time you make a turn, on what you think is for the better, it turns out to be a dead end. It is tough and I feel like there is on end in sight. Today after staring at my accounts I am totally at loss. I sit here and ponder what the next step is, and really it’s not like I lost everything, but man I am being pushed to the end of my rope here. But this verse, Naked I came... Naked I shall return.... The Lord gives and takes away... Blessed be the name of the Lord, rings so true. It’s no so much what happens to me it is what my reaction is to it. My heart, my attitude towards God. This will either build me up or tear me down depending upon my attitude. That is what Job had, I want his attitude. I read a quote by Charles Swindoll, Here it is...

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life.Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness, or skill. It will make or break a company ... a church ... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past. We cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude ... I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me, and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you ... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”

This is exactly what God is showing through his servant Job. Follow his attitude. God knows that all things work for good according to His purpose. So my part is to have a good attitude about it.
Lord help me to know the attitude I need to have for this season in my life. I know that you work for the good. I trust Lord that things will come together for the good. I trust Lord that this will happen.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

Use Money to Gain...

”I tell you, use worldly wealth to gain friends for yourselves, so that when it is gone, you will be welcomed in to eternal dwellings.“ Luke 16:9

Interesting passage. Here Jesus states it is okay to make money if you use it for eternal practices. At leas that is what one commentary says. But it makes total sense. Why not use money to gain important results? Why must shouldn’t we use money to gain eternal wealth. The whole passage is about stewardship. But it is also about how we need to use the resources to gain friends. The important thing is to gain friends. Go save the world, that is what the passages means. God gives resources of any type for you to steward. Use it to go save people and save the world. Do things right, but be creative in what you do. This is an awesome verse. Jesus states take every angle and go for it. Look at how to accomplish something and just go for it, and do it as wisely as possible. Use all the available resources at your disposal so that the kingdom can be pressed into areas where with out resources it would not be possible.

So how does this apply to me? I know that I get caught up in making money and that I want to do things that will make money. But what should my purpose of making money be? To gain more wealth? Well, the lesson here is that I need to use the resources that God has given me to spread the word, expand the kingdom, and to widen my influence with others. To expand the kingdom should be the greatest goal, and use everything I have to do it.

Lord, this is a revelation. I mean now I get it, use your wealth so that you can push the kingdom into corners where without it it would not be possible.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Auto Correct

“I know, O Lord, that a man’s life is not his own; it is not for man to direct his steps. Correct me, Lord, but only with justice- not in your anger, lest you reduce me to nothing.” Jer. 10:23-24.

So I guess I am not the only one. Here Jeremiah openly confesses that he at times tries to direct his own steps. Kind of weird considering that this guy had a constant direct connection with God. He was living in the “end times” of Judah. He was given prophecy to speak, direct answers from the God, and all the fixings of being a spiritual leader at that time, but still he had problems with a small problem called “control”.

Personally I like being in control. You feel as if you have a say, you have some sort of bearing of what is going on, and most of all you feel like you are in command. Kind of like Captian Kirk on the star ship Enterprise, or like Han Solo in Star Wars. They were the Captian of the ship and don’t let anyone tell them otherwise. There is a sense of power, comfort, and most of all security because you know exactly where the ship is going. But what I like about God is that he sees that and he says, “I’ll show you control,” and then your life hits unexpected bumps, stops, and delays. All the time you cry out. Sorry God. The lesson I can learn from Jeremiah here is that to keep that heart in check. Though he recognizes that he has a problem with control, he asks the Lord to correct him, but correct him in justice. Knowing that he will not release control sometimes, Jeremiah ask God to help him, but help him nicely.

Lord you know how much I love to be in control, but I know through a series of unfortunate events, you have taught me to trust, to hope, and to find guidance in you. Though at times like Jeremiah here I try to take it back, correct me Lord, and if you could, do correct me nicely.

Saturday, July 19, 2008


“They worshiped the Lord, but they also served their own gods in accordance with the customs of the nations from which they had been brought. To this day they persist in their former practices. They neither worshiped the Lord nor adhere to the decrees and ordinances, the laws and commands that the Lord gave the descendants of Jacob, whom he named Israel.” 2 Kings 17:33-34

After a hostile take over, a deportation, and another warning from God, the Israelites still did not listen. The continued in their ways. The word that stuck out though that was used in this translation, was that the word persisted. Persist in the dictionary means “continue stead fast or firmly in some state.” Another definition says it means “to last or endure tenaciously.” Here the Israelites instead of turning back to god, they continued stead fast in their ways and endured it with tenacity. Here their persistence worked against them. If they applied the same energy of persistence to pursue the Lord with all of their hearts, I bet we would be reading a different reading then we do now.

Often I can read a passage like this and say, “It’s easy, Israel should have just pursued the Lord.” Yeah right, easy in saying hard in practice. Like wise I too in many ways have a “persistence” problem. I often have this habit that when I really want something, I will do almost everything, wait as long as I can, and just hold out till I get it. Take for example, I really liked this girl in college, man I pursued her like no tomorrow, and after about a year and a half of just “being her friend” we hooked up. Persistence worked good in my favor. But after about two years into we both realized that it wasn’t really going to work, instead of breaking it off, I persisted saying to myself “we can work this out.” Two years later after we ruined our relationship, broke some rules, and well you know the rest of the story. Persistence was bad. Sometimes God puts a wall in front of me and I hit the wall hard. Often he says “Hey Mark, go this way.” My response often is, “wait Lord I can break this wall.” Oh how stupid I can be. Now there is nothing wrong with persistence, as long as the person guiding me isn’t myself. If I can adhere to the Lord, and listen to his guidance and warnings, and use my “persistence” problem to move in His direction, then I think I’ll be alright.

Lord, your children Israel can teach us many lessons. I see that human nature hasn’t really changed Thank you for this lesson. Help me to learn from it and get ready for what is next.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Beautiful Attraction

“You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes, with one jewel of your necklace. How delightful is your live, my sister, my bride! How much more pleasing is our love than wine, and the fragrance of your perfume than any spice!” Song of Songs 4:9-10

In the book of Song of Songs, Solomon gives us a very graphic, visual, and stirring description of what a God centered love relationship with a man and a woman can look like. Make no mistake about it, this is not an analogy of God's love for man, this book is purely a love relationship between a man and a woman.  It is very passionate, exciting, erotic, and at the same time, it is intimate, gentle and sweet. Which I wouldn’t expect anything less, being that an awesome God created love and sex. To have this kind of passion for another person is not only good, but it is very good.

Yesterday I was at McDonalds eating my Kung Fu Panda Happy Meal, and I herd behind me a couple sitting down. They were sitting together all cuddly, sweet talking each other. Since school is out, I though it was a bunch of kids. I got up to go refill my large coke and I looked at them, they were like 60 years old. At first I was grossed out. But as I was walking to refill my soda, God plopped the idea in my head, “Why is that gross? You know how awesome that is?” Then as I was watching my Coke fill up I began to analyze how much it is for a miracle it is to put a man and a woman together. There are so many factors, from their first meeting, to them getting together, then when their hearts go beyond friendship to lovers. It is a complicated process. It easy to see, but difficult to explain. So often we want to play Cupid, but we are in no comparison to God when he brings two people together.   The process is nothing short of miraculous.  When He does bring a man and a woman together, and it is passionate, thrilling, and exciting, it is awesome.  So as I went back to my seat and finish my Kung Fu Panda Chinken McNuggett meal, I smiled at the couple. It was a beautiful sight to see.

Oh Lord the amazing things you do. I am just in awe of what you do.

Friday, June 6, 2008


“As water reflects a face, so a man’s heart reflects the man.” Proverbs 27:19

Though this verse is simple it reveals a wonderful truth about all men. Our hearts are very much reflective of who we are. Here Solomon wisely says that if you examine the heart of a man you will see what he is really like. Here he is describing the inner soul, the inner sanctuary, the inner most part of him. That is where the real person is. Past the disguises that each person puts up, you dig deeper you will find what really makes this person.

My nieces are back in town, so you know what that means, I am watching more and more Disney movies. But a couple of nights ago I was forced to watch a movie Mulan again, and again. About the 3rd time I was watching it, something caught my attention. The song that Mulan sings, “When will my reflection show who I am inside.” What caught me was that what she was seeing was not what she wanted to be. So when I read this verse here what I see sometimes the reflection of my heart, is sometimes not what I want to be. I know what is God’s heart and then I look at my heart and my life, and well, there is a lot of things I need to improve on. But one thing is certain at least God shows us what the heart is supposed to look like and we have a target to reach for.

Lord I am far off from what I am supposed to be, I want my heart to be a reflection of You.

Thursday, May 29, 2008

I want to be somebody!

"Does not the potter have the right to make out of the same lump of clay some pottery for nobel purposes and some for common use?" Romans 9:21

God's sovereign choice to do what He desires for His creation. Though this is a tough concept to really think about because basically what Paul is saying here is that you could be a common folk. Not exactly what you want to hear. A common use?! Who wants to be that?! Here in America, you are constantly fed the idea that you could be SOMEBODY. But what Paul explains here is that well, you could be somebody in man's terms but you could be common use kind of person, and God chooses who is who.

Not exactly the most soothing message to hear. You are a common person. That's great. But it really is great. If you think about Paul teaches in another book that we are part of a body of Christ a body has zillion of parts, some are visual and big and well known, others are small and in the background. But you need all of it to function properly. So whatever part of the body the Lord has me created for I know that though I may not be of "nobel purposes" I know God has me functioning exactly where He wants me to be. The popular praise song by Matt Redman, "Blessed be Your Name" says it the best, "You give and take away, my heart will choose to say, blessed be Your Name!" His sovereignty is right, regardless of where I fall.

Lord, Blessed be Your Name! You are sovereign and I know that your glory and your will is most important of all.

Saturday, May 24, 2008

Against All Hope...

“Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations just as it had been said to him, ‘so shall your offspring be’” Romans 4:18

Wow, what faith.This is what it means to live by faith. To firmly believe in the promises of God and know that it will come to pass. I can now say that God’s promises will be fulfilled. I can now embrace that God’s work shall be completed in me. I trust that God will finish what He started. If He says it, it will be. Against all hope God is working. But there is a part two, Abraham in hope believed. We must have faith in God. Be confident in God through the thick and thin.

There are many things in my life where I fail to realize that God’s will come through. There are promises that are yet unfulfilled that I now know that I can trust in now. I am now confident that God can and will bring me out of the this season better and stronger. God is orchestrating, God is putting the pieces together, God is bring the plan for His purpose, and the promises He has for me will not be moved. But it may be long, it may take a while, and even to the point where all hope is lost, but God will come through. God is faithful. I have to believe in that. I have to put my faith in that. And not just say it, but really really believe it. Often as a human I say my faith is in God, but if you see how I act, I am trying to put it together myself. “Faith like a child” is what he wants me to have. But what is that? Absolute trust that He will not let me down. Trust in God in the most childlike way. When He says it, believe.

Lord in your Word, Job said, “I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.” Lord your plans and promises will come to pass. thank you for being a faithful God.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

"If you.... Then God will..."

The word of the Lord came to Solomon: “As for this temple you are building, if you follow my decrees, carry out my regulations, and keep my commands and obey them, I will fulfill through you the promise I gave to David your father. And I will live among the Israelites and will not abandon my people Israel.” 1 Kings 6:11-13

God here lays it out to Solomon before he starts building the temple. If you do this... then I will fulfill. Before the building of the temple, before anything is completed, God lays down the real law, a simple command, be obedient. Be obedient to His command, be obedient to His following. Be obedient to His order and structure. That is what God asks Solomon here, that is what he is asking me to do today.

I can’t stand when I am forced to do something that I don’t want to do. I remember I was working for this place and I they made us do something I just had a problem with. I hated it, I couldn’t stand it. I pouted about it, I tried to “reason” my with the boss. I presented arguments against it. But in the end I had to do it. Well I frustrated with the job and I quit. But that wasn’t right. I read this passage and think wow, I should have been different. God is a IF then God. IF you follow his decrees then He will...., well you fill in the blank. In my case IF I followed the order and structure of God then He blesses. I wonder how different I would be if I did it back then. Anyhow fast forward to today. God here is asking to just obey. Be trusting in His ways. And watch him bless. So when someone in authority over me at work ask me to do something which I may find the most stupidest thing to do in the world, I will be obedient to Him and do it. 

Lord thank you for the reminder that Obedience is the top priority for you. I am sorry for my disobedience as it is a rebellion against You.

Commitment of My Heart

"But your hearts must be fully committed to the Lord our God, to live by his decrees and obey his commands, as at this time." 1 Kings 8:61

After a dedication to the temple Solomon here sees the importance of a committed heart to the Lord. But there is something about commitment. When the heart goes then then everything else follows. When your heart turns then your life will turn along with it. I guess what is important here to see is that once you move in one direction and your heart commits to it, then your emotion, intellect, and energy follows. I see why here Solomon ask that if God is to give us His 100% then we have to follow suit. The heart committed can see through tough times and focus on what is important.

I liked this girl a lot I thought, but after constant rejection I gave up. My heart became uncommitted. I liked this other girl, and we dated for a month, but was rejected again and my heart towards her has changed. I see how why a committed heart is necessary for a relationship. If you are committed in your heart, then when problems arise and circumstances change your commitment will not waver. Because the decision has been made to stay true, you will stay when times get rough. Easier said then done though. I know there are things that try to steal away our commitment to God. But now I see that a truly committed heart will stay focused.

Lord help me stay committed to You only. Thank you for the reminder this morning and the victory that is at the end of the tunnel.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Ask, but....

Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, "My Father, if it s possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will but, as you will." Matthew 26:36

He had to ask. I mean why not? He knows the impending doom that has to be done, but instead of taking it, Jesus, like David prayed hard to change the mind of God. Why? It's not like we didn't know what was going to happen. We all know that when David heard that his son was going to die, he prayed and lamented, and did his son live? No. Here Jesus knows that he God assigned him to walk this very path, but here he pleads and to no avail. He has to walk the path. What sacrifice. Doing things even though you don't want to, that is awesome.

Walking in the will of the Father is not easy. There will be times that walking with God will be like the best. But there will be times where we have to walk through the fire. We have to walk through the hard times. But at least I know that before I know that if I have to walk through the hard fire, I can ask Jesus to take it from me. I can ask Jesus to take it from me. He might, he might not, but he at least I know it is feasible, and I know that I am human. But like Jesus, if the Lord does not remove it from my hands, I may walk through it boldly knowing that he is going to supply me with strength.

Lord thank you for the opportunity to ask. Though I know many times I will have to walk through the fire, you will walk with me and give me strength.

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

If it dies, it dies...

“He answered, “While the child was still alive, I fasted and wept. I thought ‘Who knows? The Lord may be gracious to me and let the child live.’ But now that he is dead, why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? Will go to him, but he will not return to me.” 2 Samuel 12:22-23

David in all his grief cried out to God in desperation to save his child. But nonethess, the child was taken away, the words of Nathan was fulfilled and like that it was over. David, then got up, doing all he could do he moved on. Though it was custom and tradition to lament and fast after a death, David here recoginzed that it was final, it was done.

Moving on after a death, is tough. But for some it’s not just a death, but maybe a shattered dream, a long lost wish unfulfilled, or just something that never materalizes. When it dies, it dies. But the lesson here isn’t just the reaction after death, but also what to do till it dies. David did all he could, he pleaded, fasted, did everything he could. So here it is the lesson: do everything you can to make the “child” live. But if he dies, he dies. There are many dreams still left in me that are not dead, but also within me are dead dreams that I am still lamenting. Letting go of shattered dreams is hard, but like David, I must let it go and move on. Go and eat, that is what David did.

Lord let me grasp the concept that if it dies, it dies.

Saturday, May 3, 2008

Get behind me Satan!

“He turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me Satan You are a stumbling block to Me; for you are not setting your mind on God’s interest, but man’s!”” Matthew 16:23

So it is here again Peter, the one who does something great, but then stumbles again right after. But you see it though, a promise. Though Peter messed up in many ways, there was something that he did right. He was passionate for Jesus, sometimes too passionate. Some ways he let that get the better of him. But the great thing is that Jesus saw past that, Jesus saw past the immature, the unshaped, and undiscipline character. What he saw was the rock, who he gave the keys to. Funny thing about Jesus, he sees the potential that lay beneath the surface. He doesn’t see what it is, he sees what it can become.

I like Peter the disciplie. I can relate to him in a lot of ways. Somedays I can do great with God. I am in total fellowship, walking with him, smiling, conversing, and working in total agreement with him. The very next day I mess up though. The very next day I say or do something where Jesus has to yell at me and say those words, “Get behind me Satan!” I want to so move past this. I know that I am not perfect, but a consistent steady walk with Jesus is where I want to be. Where I want God to lead me is that path.

Lord thank you for your correcting me so that I become better and better. Help me to be better and to make it stick.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

go, like go "now", or go like go later...

“Abigail lost no time. She took two hundered loaves of bread, two skins of wine, five dressed sheep, five seahs of roasted grain, a hundred cakes of rasins and two hundred cakes of pressed figs, and loaded them on donkeys. Then she told her servants, “Go on ahead ; I will follow you.” But she did not tell her husband Nabal.” 1 Sam. 25:18-19

Abigail was a smart one. When she heard the news she did not fret, she did not pray about it, she did not consult with others, she got up and did what she needed to do in order to get the job done. Sneaking out all those supplies behind her husbands back must not have been easy. But she did it to save everyone there. She gathered what she recognized the severity of the situation, made an action plan, and finished off the job

I sit here reading this passage and I am thinking: Man, I would love a wife like that. Good decision maker, wise beyond her years. Well, besides that, what I am more amazed is that she was able to make right decisions in difficult situations. Often times where decisions needed to be made, I take a back seat, I say stuff like “I need to pray about this more.” “Let me do a pro and con list,” While there is nothing wrong with that, but there will be times where I need to make wise quick decisions. I guess that is my problem, deciding when I need to make a quick decision, and when I need to ponder and pray. Some are obvious, but most are not. One girl from my small group said it the best, “when God says go, what kind of go is it? Like go “now” now, or like go later and pray about it first... which go is it?”

Lord I pray that you can give me the ability to know when to make quick decisions and when I need to seek more council from You.

Friday, April 4, 2008


“But Samson said to his father, ‘Get her for me. She’s the right one for me’ (His parents did not know that htis was from the Lord, who was seeking an occasion to confront the Philistines).” Judges 15:15

Samson, one of the most difficult people to understand here in the Bible. My question is why did God use him? He was easily tempted, easily angered, quick to jump camp. But still God uses Him. Why? Simply because he was chosen. Chosen to carry out God’s will. God used Samson in ways that brought forth the will of the Lord. God selected him to do the job. That is unbelievable.

When you are chosen nothing can stop it. God uses you in big and mighty ways. You have a call on your life and God is going use you. I wonder how focused in I am in my call in life. I wonder how God is using me in His Kingdom. Somedays I feel as if I am not nearly as impacting as I should be. But I know that there is a call. We are all chosen to do something here that will impact the kingdom in miraculous ways. Finding it and walking in it is the fun part.

Lord help me find my role in your Kingdom. Use me to Your fullest.

Monday, March 31, 2008


“Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Saviour and my God.” Psalms 42:11

As of recently I have been really distressed over a situation. And what do you know the Lord comes through again. So here David is down and out. It appears as if he it a wall, come to the edge of his rope and seems he just wants to give up. But here is where God saves him. He builds up enough strength and says, “Put your hope in God.”

So now I stand here distressed over a situation. I stand here one year later still fretting about the past. Still holding out. But what does the bible say to do? Give up? No way. God wants us to put our hope in Him. Sound easy but really it isn’t. It is one of the hardest things to do. Not that I am a worry wart, but I do worry. I also grow impatient when I feel that God needs to move faster. But here he states to put my hope in Him. To put my future, my goals, my hopes and dreams, in to His hands. Easy? I’m human, frail and desperately needing the assurance that things will be alright. But that’s not how God works does He? He picks me apart and ask me to trust in Him, hope in Him, and follow with unbelievable passion. The road to His way is tough, long and narrow. But He promises in the end it will be better.

Lord, though my soul is disturbed, You are in charge and You know what is good. I ask for your grace.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

When God Moves I freak out!

His mother (Mary) said to him (Jesus), “Son, why have you treated us like this? Your father and I have been anxiously searching for you.” “Why were you searching for me? Didn’t you know I had to be in my Father’s house?” But they did not understand what he was saying to them. Luke 2:48-50

Mary and Joseph must have been going crazy. Having one of their children missing for three days. That alone is scary. Not to mention that he was at the temple and responding the way he did. I would not understand that also. However, what is interesting here is that Mary and Joseph should have been expecting things like this. They should have been seeing this a mile away. Jesus was beginning to walk in his calling, beginning to take a chance and grow. Mary and Joseph should have been expecting this, they should have not been surprised.

I often get like this, I often get like Mary and Joseph. I know where God is moving, I know what is about to come, but when it actually happens I scramble, I lose focus, I get all out of whack, I get like Mary and Joseph, searching and searching, then when I find God He said to me, “Why where you searching for me? Didn’t you know.....” Oh yeah I did. I guess with everyday life and the beauty of time is that I do forget. Unless things are so immediate, I tend to drift off, get out of focus, and than caught completely off guard when God begins to move. Wouldn’t it be nice to stay in focus. It’s not that hard, just don’t forget. The beauty of the new year is that we are more aware of what God is doing and our goals are more align with Him, however, I must must not let the everyday grind of life get in the way seeing God.

Lord thank you for this message. Help me not to freak out when you move. And when you do, help me to move.

Friday, March 28, 2008

Eternal Keen Sense...

“I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe, how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things” John 3:12

Jesus here is speaking to Nicodemus trying to explain the essence of being born again. Though not surprising, Nicodemus is not catching on. Looking at Nicodemus’ situation now and after reading this, I find it rather simple. Believe in Jesus, be born again, in spirit. Now this is after the fact of the Resurrection, and about 2000 years of people writings and a lot of theological discussion this topic. To Nicodemus who is hearing this for the first time, it is kind of blowing him away. Maybe his understanding was hindered. It seems as if he was stuck on something that did not allow him to fully grasp what Jesus was explaining.

After reading this I wondered how much of Nicodemus is suck in me. I wonder how many times God was showing me some sort of Heavenly truth or a moment where He is working but because me being stuck on a certain way, or a certain idea I am not able to fully grasp what that truth is or I miss what is going on. To really understand God’s working around us I need to develop a keen sense of the eternal. So how is that done? Through obedience to Him. What I desire is an open spirit that sees God moving and teaching all the time, but because or disobedience, I often find myself trying to understand heavenly concepts with a carnal mind.

Lord point me to the direction of obedience so that I can see heaven’s truth all around me.