“I cry out to you, O God, but you do not answer, I stand up, but you merely look at me.” Job 30:20
Though this is heartbreaking, this is a very true reality. Job here is cracking under the pressure, cracking under the pain, cracking as the weight of God presses into him. Job here is begging for an answer, but nothing is coming together. He is under great distress, but he feels he is God is gone. But that is power of pain, it begins to mess with your mind, you doubt, you feel as if nothing is going together. And when relief does not come, you feel ignored, left out, and sometimes forgotten. Pain can do two things; build you up or break you down. Here after 30 chapters Job is beginning to break down.
I love to read Job, though sometimes its long, Job has so much for us to learn. I can dig deep and see that Job is very much like me. An everyday Christian trying to live a life pleasing to our Saviour, but getting hammered by the winds and rains of life. When the storm is too great, I can almost hear his cry. How come me Lord? Where are you! Take this pain away! And what do I sometimes hear, silence. God is quiet, God seems so distant, I feel as if His presence is gone. That is the problem sometimes. That is what I feel sometimes, God is not around. So what can I learn? His promise is sure, He will never leave me or forsake me. And during these times of hardships, I must trust in this promise. Though this is not easy to do.
Lord the power of pain can be blinding. Lord I don’t know when pain will hit my life again. But keep me close to you so that when it does, I know that you are there.