“But who am I, and who are my people, that we should be able to give as generously as this? Everything comes from you, and we have given you only what comes from your hand.” 1 Chron 29:14
The last plea of a great king. David here gives his final decree and final order, the last request of a dying old man he gives to his son and he gives a last prayer before he passes away. "Build the temple son, I wanted to but...". Here you really hear his heart at this age. I bet he really wanted to build the temple, he really wanted to build something for his God. But God did not allow it. God did not allow it because of the actions that David did. I wonder how he must have felt when God said that his hands were too bloody. I wonder how much that decision affected his psyche. Like Moses when he was taken to the top of the mountain and all he could do is see the promise land he led people to but he could not enter it. I wonder if David felt the same. Here you get a glimpse of his heart, of even though God has said no, he did as much as he could and he accepted it wholeheartedly. David’s cry is, “Who am I, that I could give as much” He recognized that God is sovereign.
My application, “Who am I” really “who am I”. Today in this world I have been given all kinds of assignments, titles, and responsibilities. But really who am I? David here shows the answer. He answers by saying that above all, I am servant. He gives it all to God, he gives God his servant heart. Next he shows that in everything he gives thanks. David prayed a whole lot, maybe I need to do that too. A servant and someone who is in prayer. That is what all life comes down to, “who am I” A servant who prays.
Lord help me to pray a lot more, I want to serve you and serve others also.